In this current project "On Not Going Home 2014-5", I am attempting the representation of my presence in a certain place, at a certain time, through a series of images and texts. The work is a two screen installation of projected texts and images with sound, where the distant past is juxtaposed with the present:1970s and 2015.

Edward Said wrote that "the achievements of exile are permanently undermined by the loss of something left behind forever". Where on the one hand, the "left behind" for me is the art works, landscapes, images and writings of the 70s and 80s in England, standing as a substitute for a home lost forever and perhaps never existent, and on the other hand, the present work in a different country, forming a kind of cool "afterwardness" (from Freud), where it is now too late to do anything about it, and too late to know what should have been done. And that may be all right.

Lukacs considered the novel the great form of what he called 'trancendental homelessness'. He describes the term as "the urge to be at home everywhere." He labeled modern novels, especially those of German Romanticism, as the artistic expression of this philosophy of trying to make oneself feel welcomed in any place or situation.

According to Lukacs, everyone has a sense that he or she once belonged somewhere. However, this place has been lost, and the purpose of human life is to once again find this place. The search for this place of belonging, for the 'home' that will once more fill life with meaning, is the fundamental structure of the novel.

The exile's new world logically enough is unnatural, and its unreality resembles fiction. The price one pays for narrative resolution is that it silently pre-supposes as already-given what it purports to reproduce. Narrative only ever emerges in order to resolve a fundamental antagonism by rearranging its terms into a pre-supposed resolution.





























On Not Going Home 2014-15